So excited for a long weekend!!

I am supposed to be packing for our beach weekend, but thought I would add my Friday weigh-in post real quick.

Todays' weight-220. That's 22 pounds down total and my surgery was April 8th. Feeling pretty good about this!! Still waiting for magic wand that will allow me to wake up thin and healthy tomorrow morning, but until that happens I'll keep doing what I'm doing!

I hope everyone has a wonderful, relaxing weekend and we all take a moment to remember those who provide our freedom!!

Feeling hot, hot hot!!

Want to know the greatest thing about living in the South??? A 93º day in May and then coming home to your AC not working.  Arrrg!!! Please tell me that typing this post this counts as exercise since I am SWEATING!!!!

Other than that, all is well.  I’m feeling much better about my first fill, but I already know I will need another one fairly soon. I am full after eating a very small meal, but I am hungry again within 2-3 hours. I am not having trouble eating anything, but I should have listened to all the wise people who said pizza would be troublesome.  I had a small slice of very thin crust pizza on Saturday. I didn’t get sick, but it sure was uncomfortable for about 30 minutes. So not as bad as I have heard others describe, but I won’t be doing that again! I really haven’t tried anything else on the “food to avoid” list, so I haven’t had any other problems.  

I am struggling with what to eat every day. I need to find that groove of what to pack for lunch that is healthy and filling. I am fine with breakfast and dinner, but if anyone has lunch suggestions, I would love to hear them. I have a fridge and a microwave in my office, but I don’t have a regular lunch hour. I just grab something to eat when I can…I know, bad plan!!

Hope everyone has a great week. I am so grateful for the long weekend coming up!!!!

First fill

So I finally got my long awaited fill yesterday. It was simple, quick and painless…about what I expected. He gave me 1 cc added to the 4 that were in the band from surgery and I am on liquids for 48 hours. So how do I feel? Well, I learned what everyone means when they said they were tight! Especially yesterday, I could get liquids down, but I could really feel the tightness in my chest. So now I am worrying that maybe I am too tight. But crap, I am hungry 1 ½ hours after “eating” my liquid meals so I can’t be too tight! Maybe I should just be patient. Hmmm, that’s a novel concept for me. So now I must finish liquids only today and see if I am hungry tomorrow after actually eating food instead of drinking it. Remember to CHEW and eat SLOWLY. I really haven’t had to do any of that up to this point. Knowing myself the way I do, I’m sure I will learn these lessons the hard way! I will have to remind myself over and over….or I have a feeling this fill will remind me quickly!

But once again, I MUST thank whoever invented Unjury. It is my lifesaver!

Other than that, life is good. Work is crazy. Nothing new.  Sooo looking forward to Memorial Day weekend!! A whole slew of friends and family are gathering at the beach—what could be better?? The gang that is going on the cruise in October is meeting for a pre-cruise party, and much merriment will be made!! There are about 30 of us going, so this is going to be a blast! The thought of getting away for a long weekend gets me through these days at work. It is stressful and not very pleasant right now, so I need something fun to focus on!! Payday is the only bright side right now, but hopefully things will settle down sooner or later. J

Friday weigh in

Today’s weigh in result…..leaves me very grateful that my first fill is Monday! J Reeaallly needing that right about now!

Focusing on the positive:

·         I was able to fit in to a pair of capri pants today that I could not get over my behind a month ago. And they were comfy!

·         My awesome son moved back home today after finishing his freshman year in college! He had an awesome time, made some great friends and is really finding his way in the world. Focusing on the positive: his GPA is high enough to not be on academic probation….but not by much! J Not all his high school friends fared as well, but we have cracked the whip and expect better grades next year. Freshman year was an adjustment, but now he needs to tighten up! So glad to see that handsome face every day!!!

·         My awesome daughter is nearing the end of her freshman year of high school. She is the type to throw herself into everything! Varsity cheerleader, varsity gymnastics team, managed the wrestling team, played junior varsity softball, student government, freshman leadership academy….plus managed to keep her grades up. Looks like she will just miss finishing the year with a 4.0 GPA, but not by much. My little overachiever!! She really needs the summer to decompress and laze around. Three more weeks!

·         I have no plans this weekend…and that is a good thing. It is supposed to be rainy and yucky so I have the perfect excuse to do a whole lot of nothing! I think I will overachieve at laziness this weekend!

Happy Saturday!

We’ll pretend this is my Friday update, since that is when I was supposed to post this! J

Weigh in this week—224. Down one pound. Someone please tell me this will increase once I have a fill!!! Although I am getting the feeling that I will be a one pound a week loser. I eat between 1000-1200 calories a day, so I don’t see how a fill will change that much. Drat.

No, change that. Losing one pound a week is much better than gaining one pound a week. Losing slowly will allow my skin time to hopefully tighten along with the slower loss. Losing weight in a slow and healthy manner will reflect a true lifestyle change, not just a quick fix like I have tried in the past. I didn’t gain all this weight in one month, so there is no way I can lose it in one month either.

These are the words I must repeat to myself. What I really want to scream is FFS!!!! It’s been a whole month, dammit!!! Why in the hell can I not just wake up tomorrow morning and be a size 8??? Is that really such an unreasonable request???? Yeah, I didn’t think so either. So why in the heck isn’t it happening??

Sigh.

Checking in

I am so bad at this blogging thing! I swore I would give timely updates to myself, but clearly I suck at that!

On the weigh front: not great, but not bad. Friday is my weigh in day, and I have kept to that, I just didn’t update my blog. The week before last (Good Friday) I was only down ½ pound. Since that was 2 weeks post-op I was really hoping for a bigger drop. Bummer. I spent a wonderful Easter weekend at the beach with my husband and kids. What an awesome time we had!!! I just love when all four of us are together. I am so grateful that my son goes to school in our town so we get to see him all the time even though he lives on campus, but there is just something perfect about the four of us getting away together. Even if it was just for a weekend, it just restores my soul! This is his week of finals and then he’ll be home for the summer. He is going to take summer classes, but live at home while he does. Yeah!

Going to Myrtle Beach 2 weeks post-op was interesting. I feel 100% normal and I find I am able to eat anything, just not much of it. It is kind of nice, I must admit! I can’t wait to get my first fill, because I really can eat anything. As we all know, being able to eat anything is what led to the need for the lap band in the first place, so this is not where I want to stay. The other part of going to the beach 2 weeks post-op is that I had a bathing suit that fit…sadly! I am the same size I was last year, so all my clothes fit. I just wish they didn’t!! We are going on a cruise in October, so I am really hoping to need new summer clothes for that. Kind of a bummer to have to buy summer clothes for an October trip, and then hope they don’t fit by next spring. I sure hope that is a problem I’ll have. J

So weigh in this past Friday was better…down 2 pounds. Sure didn’t expect that after a weekend at the beach! I find that I think about food ALL DAY! UGH!!! I am hungry, so I have to make a very concerted effort not to fall into old habits and force myself to eat small healthy portions. I sure am hoping this will get a little easier after my fill. Let’s face it, if I had the ability to rely solely on willpower, I wouldn’t have gotten the damn surgery! First fill is two weeks from today!!

I am expecting a very busy week at work, so that is actually good for me. I do so much better eating well when I am at work. Here’s to hoping for another 2 pound loss this week!!

Closet purge!

I know it is way too soon for this, but I just totally purged my closet of winter clothes in my current size. The cold weather is behind us for this year, and I KNOW none of those clothes will fit me next winter. So it is all getting packed away to be given away next winter.
I guess most people pack away clothes based on the season, but I never have. My closet is large enough for what I have, and I don't have a lot of bulky winter stuff so it all just stays merrierly in my closet year round. Not this time! All big winter clothes are OUT! No surprise here, but every single thing I got rid of is black or charcoal gray. Lord, I hope there will be some color in my future wardrobe!!
I am down a total of 13 pounds, so I certainly haven't changed sizes, but it makes me feel better to get rid of all that stuff. I have a long way to go, but I WILL be smaller next winter.
This time I mean it!!!!!

Food front is going well. I got some Chili's chicken enchilada soup to go for dinner last night--I could happily live on that stuff! I just skipped all the toppings and had half the bowl last night and will have the other half for lunch today. For breakfast I had unjury chocolate protein powder with skim milk, sliced banana and a teaspoon of peanut butter. 250 calories, 30 grams of protein and yummy!!! Fills me up for hours!!

I have my first follow up with the doctor tomorrow morning, not sure what to expect. I guess he will just check to see that my incisions are healing well and schedule my next appointment for my first fill. Can't believe it has only been 9 days since surgery--I feel great! My challenge will be to not get discouraged when there are no instant results. It takes time to do it right and I have to be patient. Not my best thing...